Subject: Crossing the Line 8 Sent: 28/01 11:52 AM Received: 28/01 9:29 PM From: Sharon Nuttycombe, avalon@terranet.ab.ca To: dobbo@c031.aone.net.au Crossing the Line 8 - Lines in the Sand part 1/2 Sharon Nuttycombe celtic@freenet.edmonton.ab.ca June 5, 1996 ************************************************************ This is the last chapter (finally) of "Crossing the Line", a Scully and Skinner romance. It takes place in a universe in which Avatar never happened. It is not NC-17. I would appreciate any comments or criticism. Thank you. Thanks also to the many people who have e-mailed me with their comments. I'm glad you've enjoyed reading this as much as I've enjoyed writing it. There will be another X-Files story out eventually, along somewhat different lines than this (no pun intended), but I need to recover from this one first. Acknowledgements: Many thanks to Linda Campbell, without whom this would have been a much poorer story (besides being a heck of a lot shorter!) Disclaimer: Scully, Skinner, and Mulder belong to Chris Carter...Do you think if I said copyright infringement was intended then the FBI would come to investigate me? Would they look like Skinner...? Oh no - Canada is out of FBI jurisdiction. Whimper. ************************************************************ Crossing the Line 7 - Lines in the Sand part 1/2 By the time Scully arrived at the hospital, Celeste was a mother. The labour had been quick and easy, so Mulder informed her when she arrived. Actually, he had barely arrived in time, despite driving like a contender for the Indy 500, and running at least six red lights. For a moment, Scully forgot her own problems as happiness and relief for her friend swept over her. "Thank you for bringing her here, Mulder. Where's Jack?" "He just got here. He's in with her now." Scully nodded and sat down a little shakily. "I'm glad everything is all right." Mulder sat down beside her. "Are you okay?" She looked away. "I'm fine." "What did Skinner want?" Scully hesitated, then decided to tell him the truth. "I don't know." "You don't know?" "The phone kept ringing. And then you called. So I don't know what he wanted." Scully was horrified to hear her voice beginning to break, her throat tightening with unshed tears. "I will not cry," she thought fiercely, "I will not..." Mulder put a hand on her shoulder. "Do you want to talk about it?" The sympathy was her undoing. Unbidden, a tear gathered in the corner of her eye and hung on the end of her lashes. She shook her head, turning away from him, using her hair to hide her face. Insistently, Mulder turned her back to face him and, for the second time in her life, she burst into tears in front of him. Once again, he gathered her close and let her clutch his lapels, her tears dampening his coat. Mulder could not say he was surprised. He had watched her hanging at the end of her tether by her psychic fingernails for so long now that it was a miracle her emotions hadn't gotten the better of her earlier. He knew the unmistakable signs of stress in his partner; knew when she had reached the limits of her strength...and when to be there for her. That was what partners were for. That was what family was for. Mulder had reached a few inescapable conclusions over the past few days and, sitting here in the hospital waiting for her, had reached a few more. He had discovered that Scully was the closest thing to a family he had left. He had asked himself why he had felt such disquiet at the thought of Scully having a relationship with Skinner, and had decided it was because, despite everything, he still didn't trust the man. And if he hurt Scully, well Mulder had already decked the Assistant Director once...what did his career matter when his partner's happiness was on the line? He gently ran his hand over the back of her hair. Slowly, her sobs subsided and eventually stopped. "Feeling better?" he asked quietly. "No." Her voice was muffled, and her face remained hidden against his chest. "Tell me." Scully slowly pulled herself away from him and ran a trembling hand over her eyes, which were red and swollen. "I can't," she said. "Sure you can. That's what partners are for. You can tell me anything." Scully shook her head. "I don't think so." "Try me." Scully could fight no longer. "All right," she said in flat tones, "I slept with Walter Skinner last night." Mulder blinked. That was a little...sudden. Sure, he had suspected something was going on, but couldn't she have led up to it more gradually? Maybe discussed the Dodgers game for a while first? His mind was rambling. Shock tended to do that to him. OK. She had slept with their boss. Fine. Take it from there... "All right," he said, "And...?" Scully realized she had braced herself, waiting for the tide of recriminations to come rolling over her. When it did not, she was flung off balance. "And? Isn't that enough? Didn't you hear me, Mulder? I slept with Walter Skinner last night." "If you say it much louder the entire hospital will hear you." Scully stared at him. "OK. You slept with Skinner last night. I take it there were some feelings involved on both sides, because quite frankly, if you were just looking for a one-night stand, there are wiser choices out there." No. Now he was being insulting. "I'm sorry," he added quickly. "I didn't mean that last part. This has just come as a bit of a shock to me." "How do you think I feel?" She looked away. Mulder tilted his head on one side. "I don't know. How do you feel?" Scully heaved a tension-filled sigh. "Confused. Depressed. Stressed. Tired. Alone." "You're not alone. I'm here for you." She looked gratefully at him. "I don't know what I'm going to do." "Do you love him?" The question brought the conversation to a stumbling halt. Scully shot him an astounded glance, opened her mouth to answer, then closed it with a snap. All the confused emotions roiling around inside her suddenly formed a coherent whole. She did love Walter. She must. Nothing else could hurt quite so badly. She felt as if her heart were being torn from her chest and the pain itself was almost physical. Her eyes flooded again with unshed tears. Her silence was answer enough. Mulder reached out a gentle hand and wiped the tears from the ends of her lashes. "It's OK," he said, "we'll work this out together." "How?" she asked quietly. "I can see only two solutions; I either get over what I'm feeling and life goes on as normal, or I leave town. And I don't want to do that." Mulder had spent enough years ignoring his own feelings and emotions to recognize denial on the face of the woman before him. "There is a third possibility," he said. She looked questioningly at him. "You and Skinner work something out." Her jaw dropped open. "Work something...Mulder, just how do you propose we do that? He's my boss, I have to work with him. And the FBI doesn't exactly condone this sort of thing." Her tone was sharp, the depression gone from her voice. Good. That was more like his Scully. At least she was fighting again. "I don't know," he said, running a hand through his hair. "You could keep it secret." "Right. Surrounded by some of the best investigators in the world? I don't think so." "There's no rule that says Assistant Directors and Agents can't have a relationship." "Yeah, and there's no rule that says Agents can't run naked down Connecticut Avenue, but I haven't seen a lot of streakers lately." "Actually Scully, that would be disturbing the peace..." "Mulder..." "All right, all right. I just think that if this is important enough to you, you'll find some way to work things out. I don't like seeing my partner unhappy. And if going to bed with Walter Skinner makes you happy, well...fine. Although you could have found someone with a little more hair." She threw a mock punch at him, thankful that he had succeeded in lightening the mood somewhat. "I'll tell him you said that." A thought struck her. "Speaking of which, what exactly do I do the first time I get caught between you two?" "What do you mean?" "I mean the next time you break the rules and he rakes you over the coals, whose side am I supposed to be on? You haven't thought about all of the ramifications of this, Mulder. I have." "I don't break the rules, I just bend them a little." "Mulder, you treat them like Gumby toys." Mulder grinned, then looked at her more seriously. "I know I haven't had a lot of time to think about this," he said, "but I do know that if you see a chance for happiness, you should take it. Happiness is a rare thing, Scully. I know. Don't throw it away." "I'm afraid." Her voice was no more than a whisper. "I know. But you're not alone." He put an arm around her hunched shoulders. Scully's throat tightened once more. "Have I told you lately that for someone who's usually pretty annoying, you're all right?" "No Scully, you haven't," he deadpanned. "And...for someone who's short, you're not so bad either." She didn't smile. "I mean it." "I know. So do I. You're..well, I don't have a lot of family left. You mean a lot to me." She looked down at her hands, then straightened. "I should go see Celeste and Jack." Mulder nodded and removed his arm. She stood, pulling her purse over her shoulder. She looked frail, careworn, and strained, but some of the tearing unhappiness in her face was gone. "Thanks for the shoulder," she said. His mouth quirked upward in a warm smile. "Any time. And the other one's still dry." She returned his smile. "Oh, Scully?" "Yes?" "You probably should do some repairs in there," he gestured toward the ladies room, "or you might scare the baby." She almost laughed, then turned to go. She had taken only a single step when she stopped and looked back. "Mulder?" "Yes?" "Don't go too far. I may need that other shoulder." The plaintive request caught at his throat, and he had to fight to keep his feelings hidden. "I'll be here," he said softly. She nodded, then turned away and walked down the hallway, her back straight and stiff. END OF PART 1 * * * Crossing the Line 7 - Lines in the Sand part 2/2 Sharon Nuttycombe celtic@freenet.edmonton.ab.ca June 5, 1996 ************************************************************ This is the last chapter (finally) of "Crossing the Line", a Scully and Skinner romance. It takes place in a universe in which Avatar never happened. It is not NC-17. I would appreciate any comments or criticism. Thank you. Thanks also to the many people who have e-mailed me with their comments. I'm glad you've enjoyed reading this as much as I've enjoyed writing it. There will be another X-Files story out eventually, along somewhat different lines than this (no pun intended), but I need to recover from this one first. Acknowledgements: Many thanks to Linda Campbell, without whom this would have been a much poorer story (besides being a heck of a lot shorter!) Disclaimer: Scully, Skinner, and Mulder belong to Chris Carter...Do you think if I said copyright infringement was intended then the FBI would come to investigate me? Would they look like Skinner...? Oh no - Canada is out of FBI jurisdiction. Whimper. ************************************************************ Crossing the Line 7 - Lines in the Sand part 1/2 Several days had passed. Scully had spent them all in a state of nervous anticipation, expecting to be called up to Skinner's office at any moment. But he had left her alone. Why? She knew there was something he wanted to say, presumably regarding the other night, but he was once again avoiding her. And that bothered her. A lot. For a moment, she considered going up to his office, flinging open his door, and shouting "We slept together, damn it, and I think we should talk about it." Of course, with her luck, he would probably be in a meeting with the all the Section Heads. That would certainly give them something to talk about by the water cooler... Scully frowned and bent her head, trying to focus on the papers before her. It was ironic that their situations had become reversed. Three days ago, the day immediately following their lust-filled night, Skinner had been the one who had wanted to talk while she would have gone to the ends of the Earth to avoid him. Hells, she would have left the planet if she could. Now, though, Scully was more than ready to discuss what had happened, but the man was completely incommunicado. She had even tried to book an appointment with him through his zealous watchdog, Kimberley, only to be told that "the Assistant Director is in a series of meetings and will be unavailable all week." Meetings. Hah! He was avoiding her. Well, he couldn't avoid her forever. After their discussion at the hospital, when Scully had confessed everything (well, almost everything - she had left out a lot of the more...intimate...details), Mulder had been strong, supportive...and silent. Of course, he _was_ drowning under an ocean of paperwork. The punishment that Skinner had set for Mulder as a result of his unauthorized jaunt to Canada was getting out of hand. Which was another reason Scully wanted to speak to the Assistant Director. The paperwork just kept coming. They had started to build piles along the walls, indulging in a running contest over whose pile could grow the tallest without falling over. Technically Scully did not have to help him with any of it (she hadn't gone to Canada, after all), but he was still her partner. Partners helped each other -- through good times and bad. The bad was beginning to outweigh the good. Scully had gone home at 5:30, but Mulder had stayed, unwilling to let the paperwork win. And so she had come back after supper, knowing he would probably be there until midnight without her help. So here they were, spending yet another Friday night entombed beneath the Hoover building. Another manilla folder slid off her desk. They were both becoming more than a little punchy. After the third cartload had arrived, Mulder had begun adding...embellishments...to the work. Little editorial notes in the margins...small additions to names...song titles thrown in at odd places... The trouble was, Scully was beginning to join in. Normally she treated paperwork with the utmost seriousness, but it was difficult to take reports like the last one as anything but a joke. Why in the world did the FBI care about some old British police box they had found on the steps of the Lincoln Memorial, anyway? It had become an impromptu contest. When Mulder had begun adding fifties song titles to the reports, Scully couldn't resist joining him. She re-read her notes. "Beat this one, Mulder," she thought with satisfaction. The witness claims he saw great balls of fire, there was a whole lot of shaking going on, and that the car shook, rattled, and rolled. Scully stared appreciatively at her handiwork then sighed and crumpled it up, lobbing it toward the overflowing garbage bin. So much for her lofty claims of professionalism. All it took to bring her down to Mulder's level of irreverence were three days stuck in a basement office with stacks of paperwork. And no end in sight. A paper Lear Jet clipped her in the ear and she jumped, then scowled at her partner. A small biplane whizzed past her nose. That did it. Scully hurriedly began to fold a requisition for three dozen parkas into a Spitfire. A battle began in earnest. Scully was thoroughly enjoying herself for the first time in weeks when the door abruptly opened. Assistant Director Skinner was hit on both sides by a Hurricane and a Lancaster. He stopped under the dual barrage and looked at them both. Silence immediately fell. Slowly he bent and unfolded the Hurricane, smoothing the wrinkles from it and looking up to meet her eyes. Oh yes. That was one of hers. It had been a surveillance report from Texas. Oops. Skinner was...surprised. He hadn't expected her to be here so late. And he hadn't expected to be hit by a barrage of paper airplanes either. For a long moment, he forgot what he had come to say. The sight of Scully behind her desk, hair tied back, a half-folded airplane in her hands, caught at his throat and, for a moment, his good intentions wavered. After his abortive attempt to speak with her three days ago, Skinner had come to realize that he would have been mad to say what he had planned. He had wanted to tell her they should try to work something out, try to...be together... But twenty-four hours of intensive self-scrutinization had changed his mind. She had been right all along to try to keep their relationship on a professional footing, and he had decided to do everything in his power to help her accomplish that. Skinner broke the silence. Wrenching his gaze away from Scully, he turned to her partner and said: "Security said you were still here, Agent Mulder." Mulder fought to keep the anger from his voice. For the first time in what seemed like ages, Scully had been laughing. Happy. Now, just one word from Skinner and her happiness had vanished completely. He could feel the tension beating out of her, could see the pallor of her face from the corner of his eye...and it made him furious. What right did Skinner have to make her life miserable? But then his powers of observation kicked in and he noticed similar signs of tension and pain in the Assistant Director. Mulder's ire faded and his mind began to churn over in thought, even as he answered him. "Yes, sir. I'm working late. I've got rather a lot of paperwork. Sir." He emphasized the last two words. Skinner shifted uncomfortably and refused to look at Scully, who sat frozen in her chair, unable to move or speak. "Yes. Well," Skinner said, "That's what I wanted to talk to you about." Putting the Hurricane down on the desk, he removed a page from the file folder he was carrying. "The Coroner's Office would like to know why this autopsy has 'We are the Monkees' written over and over down the side, and why the complete lyrics to 'Cuts Like a Knife' appear on the back." Mulder looked innocent. "I guess the Coroner isn't a Bryan Adams fan, then?" Skinner sent him a quelling look. "No, Agent Mulder, she is not." "Oh. Well. I'm not sure how that happened, but I'll be happy to fix it up. Right away, Sir." Mulder gave him a phoney smile. Skinner could have cheerfully murdered him. Any other time, and he would have immediately squelched the Agent's barely -disguised insolence. But not now. Not while Scully was sitting there like a silent ghost, staring at him with eyes full of pain. Part of him wanted to go to her, take her in his arms, and do whatever it took to remove that pain, no matter what Mulder what might think. But that part of him was outweighed by the components that made him Assistant Director Skinner, the same components that had made him a Marine. Skinner was not aware that his own eyes reflected Scully's anguish. Mulder's suspicions were confirmed. And the plan inside his mind continued to take form. Skinner glanced from one to the other, then put the autopsy report on Mulder's desk. "See that it doesn't happen again, Agent Mulder," he said, striving for some sense of formality. He tensed. "Agent Scully." She said nothing, only looked stricken. "I...good night." And then he was gone. Scully let out a long breath and sagged in her chair. She could feel Mulder's eyes upon her and picked up a pen, barely noticing that her fingers were shaking. "Are you all right, Scully?" She nodded but said nothing. Silence descended once more on the office. * * * An hour later Scully rose and stretched. "I'm going home, Mulder," she said. He looked alarmed. "You can't. Not yet." She stared at him tiredly. "Why not? This will all still be here on Monday." She waved an arm around the office. "Don't go. Not yet. Just a little while longer. Please?" He gave her his most appealing puppy dog smile. "Mulder, I'm tired..." "Pretty please...?" She sighed. "All right. Fine. I'll stay. But when they have to lead me out of here because I've gone blind, it'll be your fault." "I'll buy you a guide dog." "Great. Thanks." She sat down again. Several minutes later, Mulder rose. She looked up. "Just where do you think you're going?" Her tone was sharp. "Little boy's room." She narrowed her gaze. "If you don't come back Mulder, I will hunt you down and hurt you." Her tone was menacing. "Promises, promises." He grinned, then left the office. * * * By the time Mulder returned her vision really was starting to go. She looked at her watch. 9:30. "Good night, Mulder." "Half an hour more." "No." "Scully..." "No. I'm tired. I want to go home." Mulder thought for a moment. "I'll bring you a carton of ice cream tomorrow." She closed her eyes. "You can't bribe me with ice cream." "What about triple deluxe chocolate fudge?" She didn't even pause. "Nope." "Butterscotch?" "Uh uh." "Hazel nut goo goo clusters supreme." She twitched. He had her now. He played his trump card. "Two cartons." Scully cast him a long considering look. "Three. And half an hour. No more." "Deal." He smiled then looked away. Scully shook her head then picked up one final report. * * * 10:00. Not for all the ice cream in the world would she stay here a moment longer. Scully switched off her computer, stood, and pulled on her coat. "Good night, Mulder." She paused, wondering what argument he would use this time. "Good night, Scully." Huh? He was letting her go? Just like that? Scully frowned. Anticipating his actions was like trying to win at Solitaire without cheating. It just couldn't be done. With one more disbelieving glance at her partner, she left the office. Scully wandered down the silent hallways and punched the button for the elevator, wondering when the pounding in her temples was going to go away. If she took many more aspirins she was going to become an acetylsalicylic acid addict. The elevator finally arrived and she climbed tiredly into it. Scully was dragging by the time she reached the underground parking lot. She trudged wearily toward her car, then stopped in disbelief. A flat tire. Great. What else could go possibly go wrong with her life? For an instant she was tempted to go back and call a taxi, but her pride would not let her. "Feminists everywhere will be proud of me," she thought as she grimly removed her coat and opened the trunk. Everything went well until the moment came to remove the lug nuts. Scully hauled on the tire iron with every last ounce of her strength, but it didn't move a inch. "Who put these on?" she wondered, "Superman?" The tool slipped, hitting her knuckles painfully and she flinched. A voice behind her startled her. "Car trouble, Agent Scully?" She turned around, a sense of deja vu washing over her. It couldn't be...could it? It was. Skinner stood behind her, carrying a briefcase, his coat over one arm. She caught her breath at the sight of him then all thought fled. Skinner had meant to leave much earlier, but had been delayed by a long series of trivial and annoying events. It was almost enough to make him believe in Mulder's conspiracy theories. By the time he did manage to leave his office, he was surly, disgruntled, and inclined to snarl -- if there had been anyone to snarl at, that is. When he finally reached the garage, he was in a thoroughly unpleasant mood. He had spied Scully immediately and had seen the difficulty she was in. For an instant he had paused. Surely it would be better to let well enough alone. She was perfectly capable of changing her own tire... But then the tire iron had slipped and he had stepped forward without thinking. She stood up warily, holding the tire iron before her like a weapon. He held out a hand. "May I?" Scully paused. She should say no, she could manage... but... Closing her eyes briefly, she handed it over. "Thank you," she said softly. Skinner put his coat and briefcase on the hood of her car. She watched him, pain gnawing at her heart and indecision clouding her mind. She had wanted to speak to him, wanted to try to resolve what had happened. And here he was. But...what was she supposed to say? Her mind was annoyingly blank. All she could think about was how much she wanted just to be near him, how much she needed him. Only part of Skinner's mind was on the tire. The rest was consumed with equal desires to discuss what had happened three nights ago; to get the hell out of there; and to take her on the edge of the hood, right now. The latter two he discounted (albeit reluctantly), which left only the first. Talk to her. Find a solution. Except there were no solutions. She had made her position perfectly clear and he knew how strong-willed she could be. He would never be able to persuade her that this relationship could work. He might as well save himself the effort. All too quickly, the tire was changed. Skinner had tried to go as slowly as possible, to give himself a chance to think, but short of taking the spare off again there was little else he could do now. He straightened and dusted his hands off, then retrieved his coat and briefcase...and paused. The silence between them was becoming overwhelming. "Stick to the plan," he thought, "Just go now." He turned to leave. "Well... goodnight." "Walter." Her voice stopped him. "Yes?" Scully bit her lip. "What...what did you want to say to me the other day?" His expression softened, then he remembered himself and drew back. "It's not important. Anyway, the reason no longer exists." Once more he turned to leave. Scully swallowed deeply. "Maybe it exists...for me." Slowly he turned to face her. The four feet between them had become an insurmountable chasm. He knew he didn't have the courage to try to cross it alone. Scully took the first step. She felt as if she were teetering on the edge of oblivion, but she took it anyway. "Walter." The word was a plea. Unconsciously she reached a hand out to him. Skinner stopped fighting the needs and desires that were raging through him like a torrent and he too moved forward. She stepped into his embrace, her arms tightening desperately around him. She pressed her face against his chest and felt the knots inside her begin to loosen as he enfolded her in his arms. His briefcase was digging into her back but Scully didn't care. All she knew was that, for the first time in ages, she felt safe again. At peace. She couldn't give this up...couldn't walk away from him again. She tilted her head upward, her eyes shining with unshed tears in the fluorescent lights. "I...can't let you go." "You don't have to." There was a tremor in his voice. "But what about...everything? Our work, the FBI,... everything." "To Hell with the FBI." She made a sound somewhere between a chuckle and a sob. "That's something I never expected to hear you say." He smiled faintly. "I bet you never expected to sleep with me either." "No," she said steadily, "that was probably the last thing on my mind." "Until recently." "Until recently," she agreed. He stared at her in wonder, running a hand up to touch her hair. "So what changed?" She shot him a look. "Must have been your motorcycle." "So you're saying you're into leather, Agent Scully?" He was trying to make her smile. She did. "My deep dark secret." "How many more do you have?" "That would be telling." He ran a sensuous finger down the side of her cheek. Unconsciously she leaned into the touch. "I could probably find a few ways to make you talk." Her eyes widened. "Isn't that considered cruel and unusual punishment...Sir?" "Absolutely." And then he bent his head to plunder her mouth, sliding his tongue inside her and pulling her body tightly against his. Scully returned the kiss whole-heartedly, feeling desire throbbing through her veins. He was... intoxicating. Still, if they didn't want to repeat what had happened on Tuesday, right here against the side of her car, they should probably stop. There were still things that needed to be said. It was difficult, but Scully managed to break the kiss. He looked questioningly at her. She swallowed and said: "I was wrong." Fear coursed through him. Wrong about this? About them? She saw the alarm on his face and continued hastily. "Before. I was wrong when I said we could go back to being the way we were. We can't. I can't." Relief shot through him. "I agree." "So how do we keep our professional and personal lives separate?" Skinner didn't know. But he was willing to try. He said as much. Scully tilted her head to one side. "We'll still be stepping over that line, Walter." Skinner paused before speaking. "Maybe some lines aren't as important as we thought." "And some are set in stone," she shot back. Skinner smiled and pressed his lips to her forehead. "This one isn't. This one is written in sand." He deftly slid his lips lower, capturing her mouth briefly with his own, then moving down to nuzzle her neck. Scully's eyes flickered shut. It was becoming difficult to concentrate. "What...what are you saying?" "I'm saying we haven't crossed anything." His voice was muffled. "We've just moved the line." Her mouth parted and her breath was coming fast. "Moved the line. Yes..." And then he returned his lips to her mouth, and she could not speak at all. A lifetime later, Skinner released her to stare into her dilated eyes. Her gaze slid over his shoulder to his car, parked in the far corner, then returned to his. "Would you like a ride home?" Her voice was little more than a whisper. He looked down at the keys in his hand, then back at her. A smile creased his face. "Yes," he said simply. Reluctantly she stepped out of his embrace. At the door, he kissed her again, hard, then walked around to the passenger side. Their gazes collided over the top of the car. Scully smiled. This felt...right. It was going to be all right. _Everything_ was going to be all right. Her heart at peace for the first time in weeks, she climbed into the vehicle. * * * As the car pulled out of the parking lot, a shadow detached itself from one of the pillars. Mulder watched them leave, a satisfied smile appearing around the corners of his mouth. He tossed a tire gauge once in the air then pocketed it and crossed to his own car, whistling "As Time Goes By". As he drove away, the echoes slowly fell silent behind him. THE END OF "CROSSING THE LINE" * * *